If only i told her that night.

If i only said 'I Love U'.. I really2 wanna hug her again.

This is my younger version of my Heebum

(this isn't the exact picture; i don't have her picture at all).

i really2 miss my cat.. Tiggy n Zorro.. Heebum-ah..

I think it had been 1 of the best miracles i had in my life; having a cat exactly like my idol's cat. She came on her own to our house that Raya. My Siamese cat, Heebum was exactly like Heechul-oppa's Heebum. really, i'm not joking. That's why i named her after Heebum, but my sister doesn't know about it. If only I had took her pics on that day.. i still remembered that night, when my 'brother-in-law' said to shoo her away jz because she wanted to mate with another cat that was waiting outside of our house. (IT'S NATURE 4 A FEMALE CAT TO MATE WITH A MALE CAT, BROTHER. SHE WAS ONLY LIKE 'MEOW'-ING 4 HEAVEN'S SAKE!) Until this moment I secretly blamed him 4 everything, i don't think i'll be able to stop blaming him. If only he hadn't said those words.. I still can't believe that that was the last time i saw her. That damn dogs killed her. Murdered her. T____________T

My Heebum was exactly like this cat; white fluffy furs, black nose, black ears, but still, the cutest cat i ever had, b4 that night.)

Now i only have Tiggy n Zorro. Tiggy was like this cat (below):

n i hope someday i can find a cat like this (like Jiji):

Will my wishes ever come true? Pray 4 me.